bad day..

Well it started off with me having to get up extra early to finish my 4 hours of global homework...yeah that's right.

Then after I got out of the shower, all of my money was missing.

This is the second time that my 13 year old brother has been stealing money out of my room....and I was EFFING ANGRY

I mentioned it to my mom and she didn't even care.

So I called my dad and he gave me money and talked to my brother about who of course denied it.

Big surprise.

But not even just that.

My personal life sucks too.  I've been attracted to one of my best friends for over a year now but I maintain a really really close friendship with him and that's ALL.

And I helped him get with one of my other best friends..and now I'm just beyond depressed about that whole situation.

What's wrong with me? Why don't guys like me?

All guys want my ultimate best friend because she's gorgeous!! But she's taken. I'm not! arghh.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those annoying desperate teenagers who wants to have a boyfriend because I can't live without one..that's just stupid!

But I get lonely sometimes. Especially when I am (I'm not making this up) the only single person out of my entire group of friends.

Of course I enjoy hearing about my friend's lives...but after a while it's just ENOUGH ALREADY about their boyfriends/girlfriends.

But I never say that.  I just smile and listen when appropriate or add comments. But I do it genuinly. I really try to treat my friends like I want to be treated by a friend

So it sucks when I get treated badly when I put in a lot of effort...it really gets me down..a lot.

I cry everyday for numerous reasons. Sometimes I don't even know why I'm crying. I'm sick of it. I don't want to be the problemed kid at school. So I hide it...I think very well.

Nobody knows except for my ULTIMATE best friend. Seriously she is the best friend I have EVER had in my entire life.  She's the only person that I trust with everything.

But idk...not having control over anything just wears me down..

Twiggy OUT