I've finally realized that maybe I'm not meant to be with someone right now..I'm not sure if I'm emphasized my frustrations with this or not yet. The guy that I broke up with a little over a month ago is completely over me and it hurts a little bit. Yeah, he has every right to be considering I broke up with him and started to like someone else immediately. And then that didn't work out, and now the guy that I had a thing for is with one of my best friends and I fully support them! So I selfishly kinda hoped that my ex would still want me back. Surprise surprised. He doesn't. And I haven't mentioned any of this to him, but one of my effing best friends talks to him which really just gets my blood boiling. She flirts with him too which can really hurt my feelings....I don't talk to her ex....but that's a different story. I'm being a hypocrite though because I still keep in contact with one of my ex's BEST FRIENDS. But he's insanely cool. The problem is, this friend hasn't been talking to me much lately after I mentioned that I like this other kid. (confusing I know but I don't want to name names :-P)
Now my ex's friend (sheesh this must be confusing!!) is acting strangely. Even though he said he like someone. So why does he care what I do?? I mentioned that this kid that I randomly hooked up with last year has been talking to me again. And he got kinda weird and said I shouldn't talk to that kid anymore and then quickly changed the subject.
I get the feeling he doesn't want to talk to me anymore..he never ims me first. I sound like a little middle school kid..but I mean I'm really insecure I'll admit it. That's probably the first time I've ever actually admitted it. I try to play it off that I'm the most confident person in the world. People that know me at school or track or whatever else would never think that I was like this...I hide it really well. I try not to tell people because I don't want a pity party or whatever.
Idk I'm just always worried that I'm not good enough for people. I rarely im people first because I'm afraid I'll annoy them. I don't call people, they call me. For the same reasons.
Anyways I'm really tired I feel like I'm going to pass out. These regents exams (state tests) are wearing me out.
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Being with someone is about how they make you feel and how you make them feel. Like yourself and it usually follows that others will like you too.
What other people think is their problem, not yours. It is a waste of time trying to figure out what another person is thinking. All you can ever be is yourself as defined by the rules you create to live your life by.